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the last journal i wrote i said that mom was afraid of me.  well, even i didnt realize HOW afraid of me she really is.  not only did she steal my baseball bats and get rid of them, but i recently found out that she stole my pocketknife too.  naturally this made me a little pissed off.  so i talked to her about it.  first she denied that she had ever taken my knife.  i knew that wouldnt pass, so i kept badgering her for it.  shes so stupid.  cant even hold a lie.  she gave in and admitted that she took it.  once again, her reasoning for taking it was that she was afraid id hurt her with it.  doesnt even realize that i can use anything in the h

i am so happy right now.  yesterday i went back to moms, and as usual, on the first night we always get into some sort of fight.  i finally had a chance to tell her what i think of her.  that shes arrogant and selfish.  she told me that she still doesnt trust me.  but heres the awesome part.  she said im old enough to make my own decisions on where i want to live.  so, i called dad today and next week, im going to be moving in with him.  im getting all the extra junk out of my room and packing up right now.  :) now, back to the fight.........apparently, the whole reason for my parents divorce was that dad was having an affair with this one c

yeah.......i ended up cutting again last night.  i havent done it since february.  i thought i could hold it, but i guess i couldnt.  i just found myself sitting in the corner of my room with a safety pin re tracing the old pocketknife scars.  at least i didnt cut as deep as i used to.  i couldnt sleep.  it was 12 at night.  my back cramps up when i sleep, so i generally dont get much sleep anyways.  but still.  im trying to hold out and not cut anymore from this point on.  i hope i can succeed.  the knots in my back have started to travel.  i have knots all the way up my back on both sides of my spine, and now i have a ton on my shoulders, n